I pray often for God to guide me in my ways, for He is my shepherd and I am His sheep and His sheep, they will hear His voice.
I am the good shepherd; and I know My sheep, and am known by My own. And other sheep I have which are not of this fold; them also I must bring, and they will hear My voice; and there will be one flock and one shepherd. (John 10:14,16)
Indeed June was right, our praying life helps balance us. Whenever our prayer life dips, our life loses balance. Therefore we must never grow tired of coming before Him, seeking Him, worshipping Him, fellowshipping with Him.
This morning as I prayed, as I sought God and worshipped Him..
He impressed upon my heart:
The fear of the Lord is my guide
The joy of the Lord is my strength
(that) as I pray everyday for the Holy Spirit to guide me, walking in the fear of the Lord; obeying His word, doing His will, is my GUIDE.
And my strength comes from His delight, for God will honor those who honor Him, who revere Him. And That joy is my strength, and the strength gives me great joy.
I thank that He takes delight in me, in my righteousness. I thank Him for His grace that abounds so deep in me, I thank Him for His faithfulness and His mercies. Amen.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Of desires and temptations
I've been writing to God very much ('cept I haven't posted 'em online), and He is faithful to answer me everytime.
Recently, I've been pretty haunted in that I've been struggling with my inclinations, temptations.
Last night, I learnt a few things.
As I was walking out of my office, I remembered a prayer I had made to God. I had told Him how much I love Him, and I don't wanna just talk the talk, I wanted to walk the walk.
And so, it hit me that my present circumstance was the best time to show Him how much I love Him, how I could use this opportunity to show Him that I choose Him and reject evil.
It was truly an opportune time and one of the best ways to show my love. for I can be rest assured that He will not let me be tempted beyond what I can bear, so I can stand up under it. (1 Cor 10:13).
And as far as this case is concerned, all I need to do is stay away from temptation and control my behavioural and environmental conditions.
I just need to hold on toght on God's promises. And I will do just that.
While worshipping, I had a revelation about Him. Y'know, why did God make promises? He didn't make promises for fun or for no reason y'know. God made promises so they can be fulfilled. God is faithful. He couldn't deny Himself.
So. How can His promises come true? >> It is when we live it.
All the more we must have the courage, and be bold and obedient to follow the Word, for we can be sure that Christ is with us. Amen!
Recently, I've been pretty haunted in that I've been struggling with my inclinations, temptations.
Last night, I learnt a few things.
As I was walking out of my office, I remembered a prayer I had made to God. I had told Him how much I love Him, and I don't wanna just talk the talk, I wanted to walk the walk.
And so, it hit me that my present circumstance was the best time to show Him how much I love Him, how I could use this opportunity to show Him that I choose Him and reject evil.
It was truly an opportune time and one of the best ways to show my love. for I can be rest assured that He will not let me be tempted beyond what I can bear, so I can stand up under it. (1 Cor 10:13).
And as far as this case is concerned, all I need to do is stay away from temptation and control my behavioural and environmental conditions.
"James (James 1:13-18) tells us that it is our own evil desire that begins this process that can only be described as a downward death-spiral of sin. The desire to sin is already within us. If it were not, sin would not be attractive to us. On first glance, you might think that sin is some sort of a magnet. But that is not true. The magnet is within you. It is your desire."
I just need to hold on toght on God's promises. And I will do just that.
While worshipping, I had a revelation about Him. Y'know, why did God make promises? He didn't make promises for fun or for no reason y'know. God made promises so they can be fulfilled. God is faithful. He couldn't deny Himself.
So. How can His promises come true? >> It is when we live it.
All the more we must have the courage, and be bold and obedient to follow the Word, for we can be sure that Christ is with us. Amen!
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Leading a balanced life(time)
My revelation for tonight..
Leading a balanced life..

*Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend. Proverbs 27:17 (KJV)
How our cup can be filled..
By pouring it out so God can refill it..
We are not to only be takers, but rather be givers as well, but as we give of our lives, as we pour out our lives, there will be a transition period where our cup will be dry, and that's where friends can encourage one another.
Leading a balanced life..

*Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend. Proverbs 27:17 (KJV)
How our cup can be filled..
By pouring it out so God can refill it..
We are not to only be takers, but rather be givers as well, but as we give of our lives, as we pour out our lives, there will be a transition period where our cup will be dry, and that's where friends can encourage one another.
Monday, December 05, 2005
Can God use a sponge?
A few months back, I was annoyed with myself for being so easily influenced, so I called myself a sponge. I then asked myself “Can God use a sponge?”
Upon looking back, I know the answer now.
Yes.
God CAN use a sponge.
God wants people who are open, teachable, and always ready to soak up His word. People who are flexible. God’s ways are higher than our ways, His thoughts are higher than our thoughts (Isa 55:9). So, we need to remain ever ductile and malleable for His purpose. And we should always come before Him with an open heart; in obedience and in humility.
This is what I realised:
IF the sponge is constantly soaked up in the SAME pail of water and if that same sponge doesn’t go from pail to pail but obediently remains in God’s pail, he will be filled and God’s blessings can overflow to the people around.
May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing (bubbling over) with hope. Rom 15:13
In Psalms 23:5, the LORD your Shepherd said that He would fill your cup until it runs over. "Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over"
Be a sponge in God’s word.
Upon looking back, I know the answer now.
Yes.
God CAN use a sponge.
God wants people who are open, teachable, and always ready to soak up His word. People who are flexible. God’s ways are higher than our ways, His thoughts are higher than our thoughts (Isa 55:9). So, we need to remain ever ductile and malleable for His purpose. And we should always come before Him with an open heart; in obedience and in humility.
This is what I realised:
IF the sponge is constantly soaked up in the SAME pail of water and if that same sponge doesn’t go from pail to pail but obediently remains in God’s pail, he will be filled and God’s blessings can overflow to the people around.
May the God of your hope so fill you with all joy and peace in believing [through the experience of your faith] that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound and be overflowing (bubbling over) with hope. Rom 15:13
In Psalms 23:5, the LORD your Shepherd said that He would fill your cup until it runs over. "Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over"
Be a sponge in God’s word.
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Encourage me
As I was walking to work yesterday, I asked God to come in and encourage me and comfort me..
I always ask God to encourage me whenever I feel a little low in my walk, cos I know when He encourages, He always does it in a big way :p
Last night during prayer meeting, Sy Rogers came!
and he preached in the 2nd session of our prayer meeting! (None of us were aware that he was coming.. cos it was meant to be a prayer meeting for our shift to Expo.. )
So, he preached about 4 criteria to living life.
1st criteria: Be and stay flexible
Because God doesn't work in your way and probably not in your convenience too.. He does it in His way and in His time. So don't hold onto your ideas too rigidly.
The supple reed will bend & sway with the wind and not break, but
a rigid reed will be broken. So, stay flexible and don't climb out of His hands.
2nd criteria: Learn to rebound from your mistakes because you will make them
-Keep trying till you find the door that opens to success
-Failure is a necessary component in the curve of success
-God takes manure and turns it into fertilizers
-A little mistake can help us stay vigilant and save us from bigger ones
but
"You play on the edge of sin
It won't be long before you fall in"
3rd criteria: Have a sense of humour (as an attitude towards life)
Psalm 68
"Make lemonade with lemons"
God gives, God takes away but I trust God for light in my plight.
4th criteria: Ability to persevere to see the bigger picture
Sy Rogers struggled for a decade with his iniquities before God came in to deal with them. He then asked God, "why now? You let me struggle for a decade before You decide to come in and poke at my tender spots??! and why now?? When I am in public ministry..?" and then God said 3 things to him:
a) 10 years isn't cosmic in the light of eternity
b) Who said big issues had to be resolved immediately?
c) Only when you are mature enough can I cut open your heart and do something about it
Ecclesiastes 8:6
There is a time and purpose for every procedure even tho' for now, your misery weighs heavily.
A 5-year old may want to drive a car badly but does he know any better?
"Don't give up on My character in the midst of your afflictions."
Exodus 23:29
for God will complete the great work He's begun in you.
So, cross the finish line and hear Him say "Well done!"
--
I thank You God for the encouragement. You are ever so faithful.. Keep me close to You Lord I pray, in the loving name of Jesus.
Amen.
I always ask God to encourage me whenever I feel a little low in my walk, cos I know when He encourages, He always does it in a big way :p
Last night during prayer meeting, Sy Rogers came!
and he preached in the 2nd session of our prayer meeting! (None of us were aware that he was coming.. cos it was meant to be a prayer meeting for our shift to Expo.. )
So, he preached about 4 criteria to living life.
1st criteria: Be and stay flexible
Because God doesn't work in your way and probably not in your convenience too.. He does it in His way and in His time. So don't hold onto your ideas too rigidly.
The supple reed will bend & sway with the wind and not break, but
a rigid reed will be broken. So, stay flexible and don't climb out of His hands.
2nd criteria: Learn to rebound from your mistakes because you will make them
-Keep trying till you find the door that opens to success
-Failure is a necessary component in the curve of success
-God takes manure and turns it into fertilizers
-A little mistake can help us stay vigilant and save us from bigger ones
but
"You play on the edge of sin
It won't be long before you fall in"
3rd criteria: Have a sense of humour (as an attitude towards life)
Psalm 68
"Make lemonade with lemons"
God gives, God takes away but I trust God for light in my plight.
4th criteria: Ability to persevere to see the bigger picture
Sy Rogers struggled for a decade with his iniquities before God came in to deal with them. He then asked God, "why now? You let me struggle for a decade before You decide to come in and poke at my tender spots??! and why now?? When I am in public ministry..?" and then God said 3 things to him:
a) 10 years isn't cosmic in the light of eternity
b) Who said big issues had to be resolved immediately?
c) Only when you are mature enough can I cut open your heart and do something about it
Ecclesiastes 8:6
There is a time and purpose for every procedure even tho' for now, your misery weighs heavily.
A 5-year old may want to drive a car badly but does he know any better?
"Don't give up on My character in the midst of your afflictions."
Exodus 23:29
for God will complete the great work He's begun in you.
So, cross the finish line and hear Him say "Well done!"
--
I thank You God for the encouragement. You are ever so faithful.. Keep me close to You Lord I pray, in the loving name of Jesus.
Amen.
Friday, November 18, 2005
my role
God is so amazing.
In fact, I dunno how I should start.
Maybe I’ll just begin from where I last left off…
My role (in the Christmas drama).
Well, due to some changes, I’m no longer playing the main role. Concerned about me, sister Sandy and Pastor Eileen have been very supportive of me during this period.
So. Sister Sandy shared with me her testimonial as a late bloomer. She said that she’d always had a passion for acting, but because of her gifting in piano, she took up music instead of drama, in the Sch of Creative Arts. It was only a year later before she finally decided to pursue her dreams in acting. So, during her 2nd year, she switched from Music to Drama. Now, she continues to serve God in the music ministry as a keyboardist and at the same time, is fulfilling her dream in the drama ministry, getting involved in numerous church and community productions.
Pastor Eileen spoke to me too.
I’d left out a particular episode:
Before the decision to change the role, I was to have a final rehearsal with sister Sand’ and sister Jas’. And the night before the rehearsal, I sat by the pool and wrote to God. I thanked Him for the divine opportunity, for ‘rekindling’ my passion (or should I say reminded me of my dream I’d shelved for years). It was this time that I remembered how much I’ve always loved drama. I told Him I wanted to shine for Him.
So, back to pastor Eileen..
I then told pastor I would accept sister Sandy’s offer for a smaller role, and my decision to join the drama ministry. Like what sister Sandy said, acting is an art. And I too agree that acting is a craft that needs to be honed. So instead of sitting around and wait for another chance, I should use this time to work on my craft. I couldn’t deny what I told God. Even if I didn’t get the main role, I cannot pretend that I never had the talent to act anyway and chuck everything aside. If I had told Him I wanted to shine for Him, then all the more I should work on it. I need to show God I meant what I said and to use my talents for His glory.
And now, for the new story..
Less-than-one-week later, I got a call from my best friend.
Apparently she had bumped into Melody Chen who was urgently casting for a main role in her short film. So last night, I met up with Melody on the role.
I’m IN!!!
I will be playing Melody when she was in her 20s.
And know what’s the other amazing thing? The film depicts the stage in her life EXACTLY when I first knew her! Can you believe it?!
God never ceases to amaze..
“Sustain me according to your promise, and I will live; do not let my hopes be dashed.” Psalm 119:116
Amen.
In fact, I dunno how I should start.
Maybe I’ll just begin from where I last left off…
My role (in the Christmas drama).
Well, due to some changes, I’m no longer playing the main role. Concerned about me, sister Sandy and Pastor Eileen have been very supportive of me during this period.
So. Sister Sandy shared with me her testimonial as a late bloomer. She said that she’d always had a passion for acting, but because of her gifting in piano, she took up music instead of drama, in the Sch of Creative Arts. It was only a year later before she finally decided to pursue her dreams in acting. So, during her 2nd year, she switched from Music to Drama. Now, she continues to serve God in the music ministry as a keyboardist and at the same time, is fulfilling her dream in the drama ministry, getting involved in numerous church and community productions.
Pastor Eileen spoke to me too.
I’d left out a particular episode:
Before the decision to change the role, I was to have a final rehearsal with sister Sand’ and sister Jas’. And the night before the rehearsal, I sat by the pool and wrote to God. I thanked Him for the divine opportunity, for ‘rekindling’ my passion (or should I say reminded me of my dream I’d shelved for years). It was this time that I remembered how much I’ve always loved drama. I told Him I wanted to shine for Him.
So, back to pastor Eileen..
I then told pastor I would accept sister Sandy’s offer for a smaller role, and my decision to join the drama ministry. Like what sister Sandy said, acting is an art. And I too agree that acting is a craft that needs to be honed. So instead of sitting around and wait for another chance, I should use this time to work on my craft. I couldn’t deny what I told God. Even if I didn’t get the main role, I cannot pretend that I never had the talent to act anyway and chuck everything aside. If I had told Him I wanted to shine for Him, then all the more I should work on it. I need to show God I meant what I said and to use my talents for His glory.
And now, for the new story..
Less-than-one-week later, I got a call from my best friend.
Apparently she had bumped into Melody Chen who was urgently casting for a main role in her short film. So last night, I met up with Melody on the role.
I’m IN!!!
I will be playing Melody when she was in her 20s.
And know what’s the other amazing thing? The film depicts the stage in her life EXACTLY when I first knew her! Can you believe it?!
God never ceases to amaze..
“Sustain me according to your promise, and I will live; do not let my hopes be dashed.” Psalm 119:116
Amen.
Eat this scroll
Last night, I thought to myself .. indeed it is very urgent that we be armed in the word and be strengthened in Christ. Because we meet new people everyday and anytime can be a good time to share our faith, to win the lost, to spread the gospel.
"But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. " (1 Pet 3:15)
and then God spoke to me in EZEKIEL 2, 3:
"EAT THE SCROLL"
Then he said to me, "Son of man, eat this scroll I am giving you and fill your stomach with it." So I ate it, and it tasted as sweet as honey in my mouth. (Eze 3:3)
Indeed if we are to be strengthened, we need to be discipled in His word and meditate upon His precepts day and night.
-- In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God,
and the Word was God (John 1:1)
-- ...the Word was made flesh,
and dwelt among us...(John 1:14)
God, I love YOUR Word. Holy Spirit help me gain a greater understanding of the truth, and speak to me as You would, as You only can. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.
"But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. " (1 Pet 3:15)
and then God spoke to me in EZEKIEL 2, 3:
"EAT THE SCROLL"
Then he said to me, "Son of man, eat this scroll I am giving you and fill your stomach with it." So I ate it, and it tasted as sweet as honey in my mouth. (Eze 3:3)
Indeed if we are to be strengthened, we need to be discipled in His word and meditate upon His precepts day and night.
-- In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God,
and the Word was God (John 1:1)
-- ...the Word was made flesh,
and dwelt among us...(John 1:14)
God, I love YOUR Word. Holy Spirit help me gain a greater understanding of the truth, and speak to me as You would, as You only can. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Heal our land
I have been praying for healing for our land, and God shed light upon this verse:
"if My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land."
2 Chronicles 7:14
"if My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land."
2 Chronicles 7:14
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Everything for a purpose
Since we know that things happen for a purpose, we should look to recognise the reason for it, to learn and to grow rather than to see it merely as your destiny and be resigned to your fate. So therefore Seek God fervently and Inquire of Him everyday. Ask Him What is the ends to this?
I guess this could be the reason why God teaches us not to lean on our own understanding. (You know how sometimes we can get so discouraged and disappointed..?) Afterall, maybe our puny little brains (which we only use 10% of it) might just be a LITTLE INCAPABLE of understanding the INFINITE ways of God, you figure?
So, lean not on your own understanding. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6) Amen!
I guess this could be the reason why God teaches us not to lean on our own understanding. (You know how sometimes we can get so discouraged and disappointed..?) Afterall, maybe our puny little brains (which we only use 10% of it) might just be a LITTLE INCAPABLE of understanding the INFINITE ways of God, you figure?
So, lean not on your own understanding. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6) Amen!
Saturday, October 22, 2005
God encourages
God is merciful. Amen.
This began all the way back in September during Children's Day big day (Children's Day). Being performers especially, we are to carry forth the anointing. It is most important during this period that we consecrate ourselves, keeping ourselves pure for the Lord. With greater Visibility (being creative leaders and all), comes greater accountability and responsibility.
With every big day, all the more we need a breakthrough!
Standing on stage during rehearsals, I experienced spiritual attacks on my mind. Past bondage came back to taunt me, and I was haunted by mental images that sprung up in my mind ever so often. Everytime it came, I did the only thing I knew how- Pray.
Feeling disturbed, I prayed for deliverance at home. I asked for forgiveness and I prayed for comfort and encouragement, for I was feeling unworthy.
God, being a good and merciful God, showed up the very next day to encourage me!
Whilst doing my makeup, exited lil' Madeline bounced up to me to show me an sms that said,
"Lingual and Madeline, sister Sandy would like to hear you out for an audition for a part in the Xmas drama today."
As I saw that I leapt for joy!!!! In fact, I was shivering with excitement as I ate my food..!! Christmas drama audition? Christmas drama? The most important event of the year? Christmas? Me? Lingual? God? You could use me? You could? WOW!!! I felt deeply comforted by God and I couldn't stop thanking Him for the opportunity!!!
Part II
Continuing with my prayers every night, I got a call-back audition, and following the call-back audition, sister Sandy called me one night to say that they wanna use a guy for the role instead but the role of Mary was still open and asked me to go down to try for it the next day. Mary?! I couldn't believe it in my heart? In fact, I was questioning within myself if I was even suitable for it, since I figured I look slightly young to fit the role of a mother. But yes, that was my carnal mind thinking..
Beyond the role, I somehow knew there be a message behind it. "Let it be to me according to Your word" That night, I tried to look in my bible for the story of Mary, but somehow I missed Luke 1 & 2, so I went online to search instead, and here's what I found:
She was beloved of God. He saw in Mary a woman who was after his own heart.
Do you have that same longing; are you looking for his return? Does God find favor in you? Do you become one with him in sweet intimate fellowship? Just imagine the encounter Mary had with the angel ringing out his salutation of "Hail!" Mary must have been caught off guard with surprise - or was she? Certainly she was filled with a lot of mixed emotions, but could it be she was in communion with God in prayer at the entrance of the angel appearing in her room?
What has your response been to the Lord when he has found favor with you? When he has given you a higher calling? Did you follow through with the directions the Lord gave to you or plodded, questioned and mucked your way through? Dear sweet Mary's response of, "Behold the maid servant of the Lord! Let it be unto me according to your word" is so precious to me. Oh! Sisters, her response should rock the very foundation of our souls!
That was it! I too had found favor with God! And I want to have the same response! The same willing response. "Let it be to me, according to Your purpose. I want to walk in Your perfect will", I prayed..
On the day of the audition (whilst walking on the road), I asked God, "God, what is my role, what do You want me to be?" As it was drizzling, I walked under the trees hoping to be shielded from the rain, and I felt God pointing to me that I am to be a tree- To provide shelter to those who seek it, and to be fruitful.."
Part III:
You know how some people serve a purpose in your life? They come, they go. They teach you things, they leave a message behind. And that was what I felt the 'Mary' role was about. It came in to tell me something. To share with me the story of a young woman who was willing, faithful and full of faith. It was also here that the verse, "Nothing is impossible with God" took on a deeper meaning.
Part IV:
I didn't do too well for the audition tho', so as I was walking outta the audition, I kept thinking about how I could've improvised the scene differently. But knowing what's done cannot be undone, and that audition's over, I just consoled myself that everything happens for a reason. The lines rang in my head so much, I started singing it and made it into a song, which I call MY Consolation song:
Everything has its purpose
Everything has its way
And if you just walk in His will
Everything will be ok
Don't you worry about a thing
All you have to do is pray
Just think about His promises
Everything will be ok
Have faith Have faith
That's what the bible says
Have faith Have faith
He loves you all the same
Have faith Have faith
Just trust Him anyway
Have faith Have faith
Everything will be ok
Oh and finally...
"hi lingual good news ... we've decided tt you'll act as chloe for xmas. rehs start this sunday at 630pm at jw. see u there."
Yippeee Yippeee Yeahh Yeahh!! Praise God!!!
Excitement surrounds me again.. and I tremble with joy...
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By the way, I do have a song to remember God's goodness to me, for His encouragment..
It's named, "My God, My Love & My Lord"
You believed in me
Encouraged me when I pray
You lift me up when skies are grey
I thank You Lord for Your grace
I thank You Lord for each day
I remember that day
You came to me and You said
You’re here with me everyday
Lord You soothe my heart and I can say
I love to be in your warm embrace
I need You God
I want You God
You’re my God, my Love and My Lord
You’re here to stay
You’re with me everyday
I thank You Lord for Your Grace
I love You more with each day~
Hallelujah! God is good!
This began all the way back in September during Children's Day big day (Children's Day). Being performers especially, we are to carry forth the anointing. It is most important during this period that we consecrate ourselves, keeping ourselves pure for the Lord. With greater Visibility (being creative leaders and all), comes greater accountability and responsibility.
With every big day, all the more we need a breakthrough!
Standing on stage during rehearsals, I experienced spiritual attacks on my mind. Past bondage came back to taunt me, and I was haunted by mental images that sprung up in my mind ever so often. Everytime it came, I did the only thing I knew how- Pray.
Feeling disturbed, I prayed for deliverance at home. I asked for forgiveness and I prayed for comfort and encouragement, for I was feeling unworthy.
God, being a good and merciful God, showed up the very next day to encourage me!
Whilst doing my makeup, exited lil' Madeline bounced up to me to show me an sms that said,
"Lingual and Madeline, sister Sandy would like to hear you out for an audition for a part in the Xmas drama today."
As I saw that I leapt for joy!!!! In fact, I was shivering with excitement as I ate my food..!! Christmas drama audition? Christmas drama? The most important event of the year? Christmas? Me? Lingual? God? You could use me? You could? WOW!!! I felt deeply comforted by God and I couldn't stop thanking Him for the opportunity!!!
Part II
Continuing with my prayers every night, I got a call-back audition, and following the call-back audition, sister Sandy called me one night to say that they wanna use a guy for the role instead but the role of Mary was still open and asked me to go down to try for it the next day. Mary?! I couldn't believe it in my heart? In fact, I was questioning within myself if I was even suitable for it, since I figured I look slightly young to fit the role of a mother. But yes, that was my carnal mind thinking..
Beyond the role, I somehow knew there be a message behind it. "Let it be to me according to Your word" That night, I tried to look in my bible for the story of Mary, but somehow I missed Luke 1 & 2, so I went online to search instead, and here's what I found:
She was beloved of God. He saw in Mary a woman who was after his own heart.
Do you have that same longing; are you looking for his return? Does God find favor in you? Do you become one with him in sweet intimate fellowship? Just imagine the encounter Mary had with the angel ringing out his salutation of "Hail!" Mary must have been caught off guard with surprise - or was she? Certainly she was filled with a lot of mixed emotions, but could it be she was in communion with God in prayer at the entrance of the angel appearing in her room?
What has your response been to the Lord when he has found favor with you? When he has given you a higher calling? Did you follow through with the directions the Lord gave to you or plodded, questioned and mucked your way through? Dear sweet Mary's response of, "Behold the maid servant of the Lord! Let it be unto me according to your word" is so precious to me. Oh! Sisters, her response should rock the very foundation of our souls!
That was it! I too had found favor with God! And I want to have the same response! The same willing response. "Let it be to me, according to Your purpose. I want to walk in Your perfect will", I prayed..
On the day of the audition (whilst walking on the road), I asked God, "God, what is my role, what do You want me to be?" As it was drizzling, I walked under the trees hoping to be shielded from the rain, and I felt God pointing to me that I am to be a tree- To provide shelter to those who seek it, and to be fruitful.."
Part III:
You know how some people serve a purpose in your life? They come, they go. They teach you things, they leave a message behind. And that was what I felt the 'Mary' role was about. It came in to tell me something. To share with me the story of a young woman who was willing, faithful and full of faith. It was also here that the verse, "Nothing is impossible with God" took on a deeper meaning.
Part IV:
I didn't do too well for the audition tho', so as I was walking outta the audition, I kept thinking about how I could've improvised the scene differently. But knowing what's done cannot be undone, and that audition's over, I just consoled myself that everything happens for a reason. The lines rang in my head so much, I started singing it and made it into a song, which I call MY Consolation song:
Everything has its purpose
Everything has its way
And if you just walk in His will
Everything will be ok
Don't you worry about a thing
All you have to do is pray
Just think about His promises
Everything will be ok
Have faith Have faith
That's what the bible says
Have faith Have faith
He loves you all the same
Have faith Have faith
Just trust Him anyway
Have faith Have faith
Everything will be ok
Oh and finally...
"hi lingual good news ... we've decided tt you'll act as chloe for xmas. rehs start this sunday at 630pm at jw. see u there."
Yippeee Yippeee Yeahh Yeahh!! Praise God!!!
Excitement surrounds me again.. and I tremble with joy...
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By the way, I do have a song to remember God's goodness to me, for His encouragment..
It's named, "My God, My Love & My Lord"
You believed in me
Encouraged me when I pray
You lift me up when skies are grey
I thank You Lord for Your grace
I thank You Lord for each day
I remember that day
You came to me and You said
You’re here with me everyday
Lord You soothe my heart and I can say
I love to be in your warm embrace
I need You God
I want You God
You’re my God, my Love and My Lord
You’re here to stay
You’re with me everyday
I thank You Lord for Your Grace
I love You more with each day~
Hallelujah! God is good!
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Change to a bigger frying pan!
On Sunday, Pastor Carl-Gustaf preached on Faith: that will break your borders and give you beyond your wildest dreams (even if your wallet/ circumstances don't seem to allow it). Don't let your mind limit your dreams or thoughts on what you can do.
As the preaching ended, as we stood up to worship God, I was hit by a voice that started ringing in my head, "I want to goto Bible School, I want to goto Bible School, I want to go to Bible School!.." In fact, it was so loud, it was overwhelming, and tears welled up in my eyes. So fast, so sudden, I had to calm myself down and reply mentally, "yes yes.. I heard you..!" before the tears would stop.
I believe this is a dream from God. I dunno how this is going to be fulfilled but I will not inhibit the thought, the dream, of going to bible school next year. Because I am going and I am going and I am going. My faith is taking me there!
As the preaching ended, as we stood up to worship God, I was hit by a voice that started ringing in my head, "I want to goto Bible School, I want to goto Bible School, I want to go to Bible School!.." In fact, it was so loud, it was overwhelming, and tears welled up in my eyes. So fast, so sudden, I had to calm myself down and reply mentally, "yes yes.. I heard you..!" before the tears would stop.
I believe this is a dream from God. I dunno how this is going to be fulfilled but I will not inhibit the thought, the dream, of going to bible school next year. Because I am going and I am going and I am going. My faith is taking me there!
Monday, September 19, 2005
Every morning
Get up every morning and say by faith, "Oh, I love You, Father, with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind and all my strength! And I love my neighbor as myself today because that pleases You and I love You!"
Thursday, September 15, 2005
"Sacrifice your time"
Last night during my quiet time prayer, I asked God what He would like me to sacrifice to Him.
I then heard Him in an instant, "Sacrifice your time."
>>Yes God, I will bear that in mind too..
I really pray that I will not merely listen to His word, but that I will learn to apply His principles into my life too:
James 1:22-25
Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he will be blessed in what he does.
I then heard Him in an instant, "Sacrifice your time."
>>Yes God, I will bear that in mind too..
I really pray that I will not merely listen to His word, but that I will learn to apply His principles into my life too:
James 1:22-25
Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he will be blessed in what he does.
Unfulfilled vows
On Friday service, pastor Ulf talked about hindrances to reaching our destiny, and one of them was Unfulfilled Vows/ Promises to God.
Not wanting to live life with a broken promise to God, I asked Him, "God, is there anything that I've promised You and not yet fulfilled? I pray O'God that You will remind me, so I can keep to my word and mean what I say. I pray O'Lord that my ways may well-pleasing in Your sight."
A few days later, God answered me.
"Remember what you said to me as you were walking towards Club street that night? You said you wanted to be serious with me, and that you would show me that you were serious with me." : )
I write this down, cos I need to bear this in mind.
Not wanting to live life with a broken promise to God, I asked Him, "God, is there anything that I've promised You and not yet fulfilled? I pray O'God that You will remind me, so I can keep to my word and mean what I say. I pray O'Lord that my ways may well-pleasing in Your sight."
A few days later, God answered me.
"Remember what you said to me as you were walking towards Club street that night? You said you wanted to be serious with me, and that you would show me that you were serious with me." : )
I write this down, cos I need to bear this in mind.
Heart of worship
I confessed before God that I have not been dilligent in my walk with Him.
In church last Sunday, while worshipping God, God gave me a vision. I saw a girl kneeling before God in her lamp-lit room. That girl was me. Then, that image started zooming out till I could see her thru the window and the entire apartment block soon came into full-view. But God wasn't just looking at her praying. He was looking right into her heart. There, I felt that God was teaching me how to pray. He said, "Quieten your soul." (Because I had told Him that I am usually very distracted and my mind is always wandering.)
Ever since that vision, I feel it's become easier to come before Him especially when I know He is watching and looking into my heart.
God is looking for true worshippers.
Now, whenever I feel distracted, I would just quieten my mind so that I can focus better, and I feel it is helping..
In church last Sunday, while worshipping God, God gave me a vision. I saw a girl kneeling before God in her lamp-lit room. That girl was me. Then, that image started zooming out till I could see her thru the window and the entire apartment block soon came into full-view. But God wasn't just looking at her praying. He was looking right into her heart. There, I felt that God was teaching me how to pray. He said, "Quieten your soul." (Because I had told Him that I am usually very distracted and my mind is always wandering.)
Ever since that vision, I feel it's become easier to come before Him especially when I know He is watching and looking into my heart.
God is looking for true worshippers.
Now, whenever I feel distracted, I would just quieten my mind so that I can focus better, and I feel it is helping..
Mercy Forgiveness
One day, I decided to re-confess to God of my sins, for I was ashamed of myself. I confessed of my fallen nature and I sought His forgiveness once again. I was remorseful and I prayed for the Lord to speak to me as He only can, as He will, as He always has.
After prayers, I picked up my bible and God showed me the first verse which said, “I will hear what God the Lord will speak, For He will speak peace.” I got excited as that was my prayer to God! ..that I wanted to hear Him speak!
I then leaned my heart and listened all the more intently to what He had to say:
HE PROMISES TO READILY FORGIVE YOU
“For You Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, and abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You.” (Psalm 86:5)
The bible notes then wrote about the prodigal son: it said Jesus told this story to give us a picture of just how ready God is to forgive us. He’s like that dad standing on the porch, looking down the road for you-running toward you when He sees you coming. He doesn’t forgive you because He has to. He forgives you because, like that dad, He loves you and what He wants more than anything else is to have you home with Him.
Praise God.
I thank God for His grace. His mercy endures forever. Indeed.
I feel so relieved knowing I can be cleansed and forgiven in His righteousness. His grace is more than sufficient for me! Amen!
After prayers, I picked up my bible and God showed me the first verse which said, “I will hear what God the Lord will speak, For He will speak peace.” I got excited as that was my prayer to God! ..that I wanted to hear Him speak!
I then leaned my heart and listened all the more intently to what He had to say:
HE PROMISES TO READILY FORGIVE YOU
“For You Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, and abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You.” (Psalm 86:5)
The bible notes then wrote about the prodigal son: it said Jesus told this story to give us a picture of just how ready God is to forgive us. He’s like that dad standing on the porch, looking down the road for you-running toward you when He sees you coming. He doesn’t forgive you because He has to. He forgives you because, like that dad, He loves you and what He wants more than anything else is to have you home with Him.
Praise God.
I thank God for His grace. His mercy endures forever. Indeed.
I feel so relieved knowing I can be cleansed and forgiven in His righteousness. His grace is more than sufficient for me! Amen!
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
God's word gives strength
We are on a 3-day beverage-only fast. Yesterday on her way to our J7 rehearsal, June (our songleader) asked God for a message to give us, and during prayer, June reminded us that we are spirit beings and that we should not look at the surface. On the surface, circumstances may be as such, situations may be as such.. Our body may be weak on the outside, but we should always look on the inside. Because externally, we have a body, but internally it is the spirit that lives inside of us. So we should never look at things on the surface, but to look inwards to the spirit and walk in the supernatural. How apt.
She also reminded us that all things sown in faith into the kingdom of God is never in vain. The Lord sees and will reward us accordingly.
She is right. No matter what happens on the outside, I must understand that I am a spirit being merely living in my own body. I should not be letting my body control me, nor look at things in the natural. No matter how tired I may be, I should press in, press on, for all things sown in faith into the Kingdom of God will never be in vain :)
This morning, I read 1 Peter 4:
Therefore since Christ suffered in his body, arm yourselves also with the same attitude, because he who has suffered in his body is done with sin. As a result, he does not live the rest of his earthly life for evil human desires, but rather for the will of God. For you have spent enouh time in the ast, doing what pagans chosse to do - living in debauchery, lust, drunkenness, orgies, carousing and detestable idolatry. They think it strange that you do not plunge with them into the same flood of dissipation and they heap abuse on you. But they will have to give account to him who is ready to judge the living and the dead.
The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self controlled so that you can pray.
If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength that God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus CHrist. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.
Moments before this, I was feeling slightly weak from the fasting. Then I received an email from a friend. Feeling encouraged by the message, "It's faith that moves the hand of God" and we could "pray our VICTORY in!!!", I thought I'd blog about last night. As I was copying and typing from the bible, I felt God's presence come upon me as strength seeped into my body.. I feel very much rejuvenated and refreshed now. I no longer feel physically weak, completely unlike this morning! Indeed, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! God's word strength; gives life! I have victory in Christ Jesus. Amen and Hallelujah! :D
She also reminded us that all things sown in faith into the kingdom of God is never in vain. The Lord sees and will reward us accordingly.
She is right. No matter what happens on the outside, I must understand that I am a spirit being merely living in my own body. I should not be letting my body control me, nor look at things in the natural. No matter how tired I may be, I should press in, press on, for all things sown in faith into the Kingdom of God will never be in vain :)
This morning, I read 1 Peter 4:
Therefore since Christ suffered in his body, arm yourselves also with the same attitude, because he who has suffered in his body is done with sin. As a result, he does not live the rest of his earthly life for evil human desires, but rather for the will of God. For you have spent enouh time in the ast, doing what pagans chosse to do - living in debauchery, lust, drunkenness, orgies, carousing and detestable idolatry. They think it strange that you do not plunge with them into the same flood of dissipation and they heap abuse on you. But they will have to give account to him who is ready to judge the living and the dead.
The end of all things is near. Therefore be clear minded and self controlled so that you can pray.
If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength that God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus CHrist. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.
Moments before this, I was feeling slightly weak from the fasting. Then I received an email from a friend. Feeling encouraged by the message, "It's faith that moves the hand of God" and we could "pray our VICTORY in!!!", I thought I'd blog about last night. As I was copying and typing from the bible, I felt God's presence come upon me as strength seeped into my body.. I feel very much rejuvenated and refreshed now. I no longer feel physically weak, completely unlike this morning! Indeed, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! God's word strength; gives life! I have victory in Christ Jesus. Amen and Hallelujah! :D
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Not without sacrifices
During fellowship on Tuesday, whilst playing one of those sharing games, it was brought to my attention that I had come this far not without sacrifices, and that I am where I am through the choices I made. I found this puzzling yet amazing for this had come from someone I never had any close contact with. But he is right, there were sacrifices and choices.
I believe it could be God's way of telling me to keep on keeping on; to persevere.
Romans 6:
17 But God be thanked that though you were slaves of sin, yet you obeyed from the heart that form of doctrine to which you were delivered. 18 And having been set free from sin, you became slaves of righteousness. 19 I speak in human terms because of the weakness of your flesh. For just as you presented your members as slaves of uncleanness, and of lawlessness leading to more lawlessness, so now present your members as slaves of righteousness for holiness.
20 For when you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness. 21 What fruit did you have then in the things of which you are now ashamed? For the end of those things is death. 22 But now having been set free from sin, and having become slaves of God, you have your fruit to holiness, and the end, everlasting life. 23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
It also reminded me of a card I picked up:
"All humans on earth have the ability to choose what they want to become but unfortunately, many do not realise this. They allow events and circumstances to dictate and place them in their present status in life. Many have convictions on what is considered a good life yet they fail to Commit themselves to take appropriate actions. As a result, they are kept away from their desired goals.
You must take charge, control the condition of your mind-set and have the courage to step out of your comfort zone. Carry out your commitments consciously and consistently in order to bring them to the conclusions that you rightly desire and deserve."
At times, I feel tired, sometimes, I feel like giving up and slide back into the world. But God is reminding me, I have come thus far..
I guess in every race and every walk, encouragements can help motivate us along the way. Indeed, we have been set free, why should anyone want to slide back to the bondage of the flesh, having been set free. Why would I? That would be ridiculous wouldn't it?
I thank God for motivating me. Thank you Lord.
I believe it could be God's way of telling me to keep on keeping on; to persevere.
Romans 6:
17 But God be thanked that though you were slaves of sin, yet you obeyed from the heart that form of doctrine to which you were delivered. 18 And having been set free from sin, you became slaves of righteousness. 19 I speak in human terms because of the weakness of your flesh. For just as you presented your members as slaves of uncleanness, and of lawlessness leading to more lawlessness, so now present your members as slaves of righteousness for holiness.
20 For when you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness. 21 What fruit did you have then in the things of which you are now ashamed? For the end of those things is death. 22 But now having been set free from sin, and having become slaves of God, you have your fruit to holiness, and the end, everlasting life. 23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
It also reminded me of a card I picked up:
"All humans on earth have the ability to choose what they want to become but unfortunately, many do not realise this. They allow events and circumstances to dictate and place them in their present status in life. Many have convictions on what is considered a good life yet they fail to Commit themselves to take appropriate actions. As a result, they are kept away from their desired goals.
You must take charge, control the condition of your mind-set and have the courage to step out of your comfort zone. Carry out your commitments consciously and consistently in order to bring them to the conclusions that you rightly desire and deserve."
At times, I feel tired, sometimes, I feel like giving up and slide back into the world. But God is reminding me, I have come thus far..
I guess in every race and every walk, encouragements can help motivate us along the way. Indeed, we have been set free, why should anyone want to slide back to the bondage of the flesh, having been set free. Why would I? That would be ridiculous wouldn't it?
I thank God for motivating me. Thank you Lord.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
God never fails to speak to me
I truly am very grateful to God for never failing to speak to me no matter what circumstances it may be..
Situation #1:
I had not gone home one night. Hence, failed to do my quiet time. In addition to that, the next night, as I was feeling very tired, I almost wanted to forego my quiet time again. However, I did it anyways in the end. And as I was reading my daily devotional for the night that I had missed, God said..
"Therefore, as the Holy Spirit says, "Today, if you will hear His voice, do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion..." Heb. 3:7-8
"(a) Warning against negligence Heb. 2:1-4
(b) Warning against sloth. (5:11-6:20) Sloth means laziness. You will find that the Bible warns more against laziness than drunkenness. When you become spiritually sluggish, you lose your ability to hear the voice of God so as to accurately discern spiritual matters.
If we keep rejecting the gentle prompting of the Lord to change, we can move into a place where there is no more room for repentance.
Let us walk in the fear of God, knowing that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom."
As I read the above, I was both guilty and afraid, for indeed, God, was speaking to me about my problem. Then I proceeded to read the night's devotional and God said..
"Our inner soul yearns for communion with God. If that longing is not satisfied by communion with our heavenly Father, it will feast on any compelling counterfeit.
God is good. Jesus sympathizes with your many weaknesses and understands the pressures of life that you go through every single day. His throne is a throne of grace, not a throne of judgement."
He showed me that we can come to Him in all things, and I thank God for His grace. We should never forsake Him. He is faithful and His mercy endures forever.
Situation #2:
One of my friends' in dire financial straits so a group of us decided to fast for a breakthrough. Admittedly, I was feeling slightly lethargic. On the morning of my fasting, God encouraged me with Hebrews 10:24-25:
"And let us consider one another in order to stir up love and good works, not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching."
Indeed, we are a team and there should be greater unity in our spirit.
I thank God for His word, for out of His word flows rivers of living water. His word is treasure. His word brings life.
Pastor Eileen told us tonight, that in warfare (attack), everything has to be tripled; the soldiers, the ammunition..
I truly must be prepared. There is no time to lose and I must have greater urgency in my spirit. Holy Spirit, help me :)
Situation #1:
I had not gone home one night. Hence, failed to do my quiet time. In addition to that, the next night, as I was feeling very tired, I almost wanted to forego my quiet time again. However, I did it anyways in the end. And as I was reading my daily devotional for the night that I had missed, God said..
"Therefore, as the Holy Spirit says, "Today, if you will hear His voice, do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion..." Heb. 3:7-8
"(a) Warning against negligence Heb. 2:1-4
(b) Warning against sloth. (5:11-6:20) Sloth means laziness. You will find that the Bible warns more against laziness than drunkenness. When you become spiritually sluggish, you lose your ability to hear the voice of God so as to accurately discern spiritual matters.
If we keep rejecting the gentle prompting of the Lord to change, we can move into a place where there is no more room for repentance.
Let us walk in the fear of God, knowing that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom."
As I read the above, I was both guilty and afraid, for indeed, God, was speaking to me about my problem. Then I proceeded to read the night's devotional and God said..
"Our inner soul yearns for communion with God. If that longing is not satisfied by communion with our heavenly Father, it will feast on any compelling counterfeit.
God is good. Jesus sympathizes with your many weaknesses and understands the pressures of life that you go through every single day. His throne is a throne of grace, not a throne of judgement."
He showed me that we can come to Him in all things, and I thank God for His grace. We should never forsake Him. He is faithful and His mercy endures forever.
Situation #2:
One of my friends' in dire financial straits so a group of us decided to fast for a breakthrough. Admittedly, I was feeling slightly lethargic. On the morning of my fasting, God encouraged me with Hebrews 10:24-25:
"And let us consider one another in order to stir up love and good works, not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching."
Indeed, we are a team and there should be greater unity in our spirit.
I thank God for His word, for out of His word flows rivers of living water. His word is treasure. His word brings life.
Pastor Eileen told us tonight, that in warfare (attack), everything has to be tripled; the soldiers, the ammunition..
I truly must be prepared. There is no time to lose and I must have greater urgency in my spirit. Holy Spirit, help me :)
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Don't lose momentum
Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. 2 Cor 6:9
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart. Gal 6:9
On the topic of sowing and reaping, Pastor Eileen says, that we are not to lose our momentum; we will receive our reward if we do not lose heart.
In line with what I’d prayed for a few weeks ago, I thought that I had been rather inconsistent in my spirituality, so I prayed that I’d be more steadfast in my spiritual walk with God, and surprisingly, a day later in a combined zone meeting in church, Pastor Derek prayed that all of us would be steadfast Christians. Strange cos "steadfast" isn’t an adjective my church typically use. But not so strange when you know that it is God who has heard your prayers : )
And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart. Gal 6:9
On the topic of sowing and reaping, Pastor Eileen says, that we are not to lose our momentum; we will receive our reward if we do not lose heart.
In line with what I’d prayed for a few weeks ago, I thought that I had been rather inconsistent in my spirituality, so I prayed that I’d be more steadfast in my spiritual walk with God, and surprisingly, a day later in a combined zone meeting in church, Pastor Derek prayed that all of us would be steadfast Christians. Strange cos "steadfast" isn’t an adjective my church typically use. But not so strange when you know that it is God who has heard your prayers : )
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